So, I was exhausted and angry all the time. I remember looking through the phone book for a counselor and finding one that my insurance would pay for. I called and got a voice mail and left a rambling message…
Dissolution starts years before the divorce
The next few years are a bit hazy in my memory. It’s probably because of sheer exhaustion. My husband was gone from early 1999 until early 2000. At the end of 1999 his mother died suddenly and we had to…
Here we go round in circles…
I remember going in to work to introduce my daughter to my coworkers and many people commented on how thin I looked and how quickly I’d lost a lot of the baby weight. Perhaps that was part of the reason…
Eating for two is nothing new
I had figured that I wasn’t pregnant because it seemed like I got my period. It was only a day and very light, but I figured that was enough to consider it a period and enough to know I wasn’t…
Accepting that I’m fat…AKA giving up
My daughter always tells me that in a group of people she can generally pick out the Air Traffic Controllers pretty easily. Many of them have a bit of a “nerdy” look to them. And lots of them are overweight.…
The long slow climb to new heights…or widths.
I’m pretty sure I started gaining my weight back during the wedding reception. I had managed to lose the weight and fit into my dress and I was feeling pretty cocky. But I no longer had a reason to watch…
The wedding after the wedding
I had been dreaming about my wedding day since I was about six years old and went to the wedding of a woman my parents knew. When James and I decided to get married in October of 1992, it came…
Singing at the Love Boat
When I was at the Air Traffic Control Academy in Oklahoma City I went to my first karaoke at the Holiday Inn bar. I was instantly hooked. I’d always loved to sing. I used to sing along with records and…
Groton Tower…where the real training starts
As a present to myself for passing the Academy, I bought two Rottweilers, a male and a female, and named them Samson and Delilah. Of course I was in Oklahoma and now had to get them back to Connecticut. They…
Welcome to the FAA Academy – Boot camp of the mind
So I loaded up my red Mazda MR-2 with all of the things I would need for 2-3 months in Oklahoma and I started driving at the beginning of March 1991. I was feeling pretty good. I was slim and…